160929 Laa tahzan, innAllaha ma'ana

Assalamualaikum.

Hampir jam 1, penyakit menahun yang sulit sekali sembuhnya, insomnia, jadilah saya jam segini masih terjaga.

Saya manusia biasa, tempat salah, tempat lupa, tidak sempurna.

Meminta orang lain maklum saat saya salah, namun sulit memaafkan saat orang lain salah. Saya adalah orang yang cukup egois. Banyak alasan yang mendasarinya.

Di usia saya, orang lain sudah mendapatkan sebuah pencapaian dalam hidup. Entah itu dalam masalah karir ataupun pernikahan. Tapi untuk saya, sepertinya keduanya belum bisa saya capai dalam waktu dekat.

Selain egois, saya juga pengecut. Sekali dikecewakan akan sulit untuk bangkit.

Saya berusaha keras agar saya bisa menjadi pribadi yang lebih baik. Lebih pemaaf, lebih nerima, lebih maklum, lebih sabar, lebih kuat, lebih ikhlas.

Saya akui dalam urusan ibadah pun saya masih sangat lemah. Mungkin itu pula sebabnya saya masih terpontang-panting, seperti tak punya pegangan. Seakan apa yang terjadi pada saya adalah hal terburuk di dunia. Seakan saya adalah manusia paling menderita di dunia.

Beberapa hari yang lalu saya sakit, kata dokter asam lambung naik, sehingga memicu vertigo yang lumayan parah. Saya dianjurkan untuk cukup tidur, makan teratur, banyak minum air putih, dan beberapa pantangan untuk mengatasi asam lambung naik lagi. Saya juga diberi vitamin A untuk tambah darah, karena saya juga anemia. Ternyata benar, pertambahan usia juga mengakibatkan turunnya kesehatan.

Sayangnya satu saran dokter yang belum bisa saya lakukan, yaitu cukup tidur. Saya sudah berbaring di kamar semenjak jam 9, sebelumnya saya minum obat sisa dari dokter yang bikin ngantuk setengah mati. Sayangnya meskipun sudah ngantuk tetap tidak bisa tidur. Saya tadi sempat melanjutkan salah satu naskah novel di laptop. Tapi saya takut ketahuan belum tidur oleh orang tua, suara mengetik keyboard bisa terdengar bukan? Makanya saya sudahi.

Sore tadi saya dihadapkan dengan sesuatu yang cukup mengecewakan. Sangat mengecewakan malah. Membuat saya terus memikirkannya. Lagi-lagi menganggap saya sebagai orang paling menderita di dunia. Saya bingung harus bagaimana.

Saat ini sebenarnya adalah waktu yang cocok untuk mulai sholat malam, biasa manusia, baru mau dekat dengan Tuhan saat ada masalah. Saya nggak munafik. Tapi demi Allah, saya ingin berubah. Namun entah mengapa masih sangat sulit.

Biasanya (saat ada masalah begini) saya akan langsung sholat dan berdoa memohon petunjuk. Sehingga hati saya akan lebih tenang. Sayangnya saat ini saya sedang halangan. Rasanya pikiran ini gelap, ditambah suasana yang gerah. Semakin penat dan tidak nyaman. Mau tidur tetap tidak bisa tidur. Akhirnya saya browsing. Dan saya menemukan sebuah kalimat dalam bahasa Arab yang indah. Bukan hanya kalimatnya yang indah, namun artinya pun indah.

Laa tahzan, innAllaha ma'ana. Jangan bersedih, sesungguhnya Allah bersama kita.

Saya sungguh terharu dengan kalimat tersebut, membuat saya menangis.

Saya akhirnya sadar, meskipun saya sedang tidak bisa berdoa dalam sholat, namun saya masih bisa berdoa dalam hati, meminta ketenangan hati, yakin bahwa setiap masalah ada solusinya. Asal tetap berusaha dan berdoa juga bertawakal.

Ya Allah, jadikanlah hamba menjadi pribadi yang lebih baik, bantulah hamba dalam menjalani hidup, tunjukkanlah hamba dan keluarga hamba jalan yang lurus, sehingga kami tak tersesat, bantulah kami terlepas dari masalah-masalah kami, dan jangan biarkan kami merasa sendiri, jadikanlah kami selalu mengingatmu. Aamiin.

Laa tahzan, innAllaha ma'ana.

Wassalamualaikum.

140629 First Day of 'Buka Puasa / Breakfasting' in Ramadhan 1435 H

Assalamu'alaikum^^

as I promised in my post about sahur, so now... let's jump to the Buka Puasa / Breakfasting. Yeah.. in the Twilight / Maghrib, All muslims will break their Puasa / Fasting by drinking some water / anything's sweet. Our prophet Muhammad recommended us to drink and eat 3 Kurmas. Kurma ia a fruit from Arab Saudi. It contains so many good nutrition for human body and also contains antioxidant. So by eating it, we will be full of energy in once. It tastes so sweet. Kkk... Actually That's the Kurma that we eat in Indonesia.

Because the Kurma already had been seasoned with a lot of sugar, so it won't be broke easily cause of Export / Import. Actually Kurma can be eat directly from the tree. But I don't know how the taste is.

Since our family didn't buy Kurma yet, so we take the breakfasting with this :

 Papaya, Oranges and Pudding

 Hot SWEET Tea

After Adzan Maghrib, we immediately drink a glass of Hot SWEET Tea. After it, we eat The Papaya or the Oranges for the takjil [Takjil is some kind of snack that usually use to brak the Puasa / fasting]

And then we take Wudhu [A ritual before we Sholat / Pray to Allah]. Wudhu will make us clean and holly, so after that we Sholat Maghrib, and then eat to the Havier dishes.

 Rice, Fried Tofu, Fried Egg mix with Noodle, Sambal Kecap ^^

My mother is really creative in making food. She mixed egg with noodle and then fry it. It's delicious^^ . Sambal Kecap is one of our family favourite. No wonder that it often appear to our menu :)

 Plecing Kangkung

And here is the Vegetables. We have to be ballance between, Carbohydrate, Fiber, Protein and Collesterol that include to our body. So we will be stay healthy^^

Anyway 'Plecing Kangkung' is one of any dishes from Indonesia. It made by a vegertable named Kangkung / Kale. It got stir-fry with the seasoning. Hmh... it's delicious^^

 The pudding that already cutted, kkk

And here is the dessert. Pudding!!!!!..... I always love this food cause it contains a lot of fiber and make us healthy. It can make my stomach feel cool and comfortable after eating ;)

This is my pic that I took before breakfasting :D

 The face of a Hungry girl :D

And this one is after breakfasting. Kinda different XD

Well, that's all my post about the culture of breakfasting in our house. Actually most of Muslims in our city do the same thing as us. Kkk.....

Thank you for visiting, Let's meet again in my other post... :)

Wassalamu'alaikum^^

140629 First 'Sahur' with Family [Ramadhan 1435 H]

Assalamu'alaikum.^^

Today is the first day of Ramadhan month for all muslims in the world. In this month, muslims are having Siam/Puasa/Fasting. We didn't eat or drink anything from the dawn / imsya' time [Around 04.00 am WIB] until The Twilight / Maghrib [Around 17.30 pm WIB]. It's quiet a long time :D . Actually we are not only press our hunger in that time, but also our passion and lust for everything that might bring us to the too much emotion. Like anger, fangirling [T.T], reading NC FF, etc. Kkk....

We have to press it until a month. Yeah,... a month. Kkk.... I always love Ramadhan month cause it feels peace and full of Happiness. And we will have Idul Fitri / Ied Fitri Mubarak after this full of month^^

Well, here I will share the pic of my super fabulous family, for having 'Sahur' for the first day.

Kkkk..... so we got up early in about 03.00 am WIB [It's different time in each Country], and we have Sahur. Sahur is like a Late dinner. We did it for gain our energy for fasting all day long. Hihi....

Our menu :

Not clear? Well, I give a more clear pic ;)

Still not clear??? Aish... just act like it was a very clear and super high quality picture , kkkk

Kkk... a super simple dishes,.. just think about it. We woke up before dawn, and we eat. If we eat anything's too much it won't be matching our mood to eat. So we choose this super simple dish. We have fried fish, fried tofu and home made nugget for the protein. We have cucumber for the vegetable. We have rice for the carbohydrate. 

And we also have sambal. Yeah... sambal is a super must there menu in Indonesia. Without it we will feel like we wont eat anymore :D

Sambal kecap :

In this menu we have Sambal Kecap / Black Soybean Paste Sambal. It's the combination of Kecap / Black Soybean Paste with Chilli. It's really yummy and match to eat with rice and anything's with it. The taste is Sweet and very Spicy in the same time. If you are sleepy, you will immediately wake up cause of it. Haha....

And actually we have special snack  menu :

It's Balado Stick. Kkk....

A must there snack for Ied Fitri Mubarak actually, but in the Ramadhan we always have it in the house. Why? Because my youngest bro likes it a lot. He will eat rice more if he eats that stick too. And he won't be lazy to have Sahur too. Really helping to make him learning the Islam Culture since young. ;)

So, let's see our super sleepy face while eating :D

my father and youngest brother :D

The are a lot of messy everywhere, we have PC Bang in the house, so it... yeah.... it's good in the PC Bang, but not inside the house XD

my cute bro ^^

specially for him, he can only puasa for a half day cause he's still really young. Usually people in Indonesia start the full puasa in the third grade of elementary school. It around the age of 9/10. But special for me, I start my first full time of puasa in the third grade too, but when I was 3rd grade, my age is still 8 years old. Kkk... I got into the school to early :D

Our mother ;)

She's messaging with my younger sister that is now outside the city. She didn't go home this weekend, she will next weekend. kkk.....

my other younger brother.... 

Hmh... what is he watching in the TV Actually? Why is the TV is so light? :D

Well, let's take it closer!

 Oh... Colombia VS Uruguay.... the 2014 FIFA World Cup!!!

Oh... so he watched the world cup! kkk... actually not only him, but us. We watched the World Cup. I don't have any favorite country since my country didn't include there :D I also didn't have any favorite football player, but I just enjoy the play^^ Ah, actually I cheer up for South Korea before. But South Korea didn't include to the big 16. Hmh...

Last but not least!

It's me!!!! XD

Haha.... to be honest, I'm so so so sleeeeeepyyyyy :D

Oh well,... actually that's all our moment to have the first Sahur today. Hmh... I will update about our first 'Buka Puasa' / 'Break fasting' too later in the evening. So please stay tune!^^ kkk.....

Okay guys, thank you for visiting, and I have the last pic for this post,.... It's me with my boyfriend :D *plakk.... No. No.... It's my brother. The one above who was watching the World Cup! ^^ 

Wearing hoodies cause right now here is soooo cold. Kkkk.... We're in tropical country, but lately it's so cold. Hmh....but It's alright, actually I prefer Cold Weather than have to be sweaty cause of hotness. kkk....

Anyway right now is about 06.45 am WIB. And I used KST for this blog time managing... XD

Well,.......... Chawwwwww.... Let's see again later... muaaah....

Wassalamu'alaikum^^